Some People Go Through Hell To Become Holy
Over the last few years I have talked a lot about abundance in all areas of life.
I work hard to be a good role model because I know that I have to walk my talk to be a good teacher.
But I sure do have my human moments…
Truth be told, I’m pretty good at manifesting business, but I am still growing in the relationship arena.
And I’m pregnant.
For those of you who have experienced or witnessed pregnancy, you know it’s not the most emotionally stable condition a woman can go through. I can shift from murderous rage to despair to bliss in a matter of 10 seconds.
But, I’m kind of loving the emotional intensity. It’s raw, authentic and kind of healing. I don’t waste words right now. I sort of shoot from the hip, like a powerful verbal gunslinger…
It’s good for me because I was trained at an early age to be very nice and very happy. I’m liking my pregnant Dark Side…
Last week my kids were battling some flu-like monster for the third time this season. I was up several nights in a row with coughing, sick kids. (Yes, they can still keep you up even when they are teenagers…)
By the third night I was not only pregnant, but significantly sleep-deprived!
Now, I may not always reveal this to you guys, but I allude to it in some of my classes. There is a part of me that has a sick lust for self-inflicted misery. Sometimes I just plain like feeling sorry for myself!!
Sleep deprivation mixed with a little hormonal volatility made for a nice night of torturing myself in bed while I could have been sleeping. In the span of four moonlit hours I managed to dredge up and remember (and cry about) every emotional betrayal I’ve ever experienced at the hands of a man.
As each hour marched by, I became more and more convinced that I am one of “those kinds of women” that men “just don’t love.”
Ugh!
At one point I imagined myself as one of my clients and wondered what I would say to myself if I called myself for an appointment…(does that make sense?).
(I probably would have given myself a swift kick in the pants…)
Finally around three am my Spirit Guide, Thomas, couldn’t take it any more and began to yell at me with his ethereal bullhorn.
“You’re turning this into a story,” he said.
“Your emotions are telling you that you’re out of alignment with your intentions,” he said.
“The intensity of your feelings are very powerful. You are being VERY creative right now,” he said.
(“And can’t a guy get some sleep on this planet and is it too late to apply for a transfer…,” he thought to himself.)
Of course, he was right.
One of the most powerful channelers I know, Sheryl Blumenthal, once said to me, “Some people go through hell to become holy.”
Now, I’m not a big fan of martyrdom. It’s easy to interpret the above statement as an endorsement of suffering to become enlightened.
I don’t think you have to suffer at all.
But, invariably, we do go through a wide range of emotions in this human experience. We have to.
And our true “holy-ness” comes when we intentionally master the creative process in the third dimension. We need hell to help us get clarity about what we want to create.
Let me explain:
Happiness is the base-line frequency of your vibrational wave when you are feeling abundant and prosperous. A base-line frequency of happiness is natural, normal and healthy.
The happier you feel, the faster your vibration and the more you attract experiences that reflect your happiness. The faster your vibration, the less time you spend experiencing the normal peaks and troughs that come with a vibrational wave. Your wave is faster and the peaks and troughs are shorter in height and duration.
This is why when you feel good, it seems like you are not experiencing as much sadness or even extreme bliss. There is an even balance between the undulations of the wave and you barely notice the subtle shifts in your vibration.
When your vibration is low, you lower your base-line frequency from happiness to depression or frustration, the wave travels slower and the peaks and troughs are higher, more pronounced and last longer. When you slow your vibration down, it gets easier to align with chaos and to feel stuck in energies and situations that don’t seem to change very easily.
Raising your frequency requires deliberate thinking and disciplined attention to your emotional state. It’s a simple process but not always easy because it can take time to make a lasting shift. Remember, when you make the decision to make this change, you are often rewiring a lifetime of biology.
You can control your emotional state and the vibrational frequency you radiate. The trick is learning how to deliberately control your vibrational state and, at the same time, letting your emotional energy flow and communicate to you the way it is intended.
Remember, your natural state is abundance. Your body is “hard-wired” to be abundant. But, you are simultaneously vibrating and experiencing undulations on your emotional wave. You will vibrate faster when you focus on your abundance, success and experiences you want to have.
Your vibration slows down when you think about your perceived blocks, pains and limitations. These thoughts take you away from your abundant vibration.
You will ALWAYS have experiences that may seem “bad”. You NEED to have experiences that don’t always feel great. Your seemingly bad experiences give you clarity to help you deepen your awareness of what you do want in order for you to expand and grow.
Think about this. What if you were always happy…no undulations on your emotional wave…just happy all the time. As much as we fantasize that this is the experience we choose to have, a pure happy sine wave, with no opposite experiences, does not vibrate.
And, as we know, a sine wave that is not vibrating is dead.
Life without the seemingly bad experiences is a life without the potential for growth. The challenge is allowing the emotions of the “bad” experiences to fulfill their purpose of helping us gain clarity and evolve, and to not get stuck in the negativity.
We have a tendency to judge our emotional experiences as either good or bad. Emotional energy is simply the DNA of your soul talking to you. It is neither good, nor bad. But when we label certain kinds of feelings as bad, resist them and define ourselves by our experience of them, then we run the risk of identifying with the low end of our sine wave, placing our focus here and consequently slowing the vibration down.
Try this. Say these statements slowly to yourself in the mirror:
I am sad.
I am tired.
I am depressed.
I am angry.
I am frustrated.
I am happy.
I am glad.
I am joyful.
Can you feel the difference in the energies of these statements? We are not our emotions. To say you are your emotions is the same as a screen door saying that it is the wind. You are experiencing your emotions and they are talking to you, giving you direction and helping you clarify your direction and desires.
The minute you identify with your emotions and “become” them is the minute you begin to trap yourself in a “story” that takes you away from your natural abundant state. Your emotions are supposed to flow through you, as the wind blows through a screen door. Your job is to listen to them, and use them to gain clarity and a deeper understanding of your Desires and beliefs.
Your feelings are the compass of your soul’s journey. Your emotions are simply letting you know whether you want more of a situation that feels good or something different from a situation that feels bad.
Creation always starts with a Desire. Your Desires and Inspirations are God whispering your life’s direction to you. As you experience your Desire, an aspect of your Unlimited Self is already living the Desire. In the third dimension, our perceptions can be limited by time and space. The expanded aspect of ourselves lives outside of the confines of the third dimension. Desires are fulfilled instantly.
So, when you have a Desire, there is a part of you that is already living it. In order to have the Desire fulfilled in the third dimension, you have to be vibrationally lined up with the experience you are wanting. Your emotions indicate to you whether your vibrations are lined up or not.
The more intense your emotions, the bigger the Desire. That’s why some of us seemingly experience greater trauma and drama. We want big things. We live big.
I realized that night that what I was really doing while I was sniffling and whining away in my bed was helping myself get clear (really, really clear) about what I want.
And the intensity of my emotions were not indicative of my level of dysfunction, but rather, showing me that I really, really, really want to experience a big love.
I was, of course, not yet energetically lined up to attract Big Love, but my feelings helped me get clear.
I might not experience Big Love in this lifetime but I will have it sometime in my experience. It’s Universal law.
(And in the meantime, I will keep acknowledging the evidence that I have in my life right now, that I am already experiencing Big Love in so many other ways…I mean, y’all should meet my dog…)
You may not have big feelings about love in your life. But I’ll bet there is something in your life that you have big feelings about.
Maybe you’re frustrated or frightened or even angry about your finances.
The more intense your feelings, the bigger your desires. You will receive in accordance with the intensity of the desire.
The next time that emotional intensity keeps you awake, remember, Big Money is on its way to you.
Feel your feelings. You need them. Use them to get clear and then celebrate your creation in progress!
Love,
Karen
December 11th, 2008 at 9:50 am
Boy Karen, if that’s true, I’m going to be very very rich.
I hope you get your big love in this lifetime. I’m betting you will.
Carole
December 11th, 2008 at 7:32 pm
Wow….Amazing how the universe works. I am reading about this very subject in the Abraham-Hicks book the Astonishing Power of Emotions. What is most amazing to me is that I am seeing more and more clearly how EFT (emotional freedom technique) works in helping us to shift our vibrational rate which helps us move to where we truly desire to be.
Karen, thanks for experiencing this and telling us about it! LOL